Time comes to a standstill whenever you are alone. The dreaded exams have finally concluded for me. The number of people in school has been diminishing exponentially and it felt so dreadful to have to drag your body to school just to study. I guess we all have complaints. I know I should be happy that my exams are over, happy that I can be spending my own time, but well this has all changed isn't it? The moment the speakers went, " You may leave the hall now..." I began to dread this new beginning. The semester has concluded, FINALLY and its been such a roller coaster ride to begin with. Life will never be plain sailing and for the 2 years that it has been so sweet for me, its just the right time for some tough times isn't it? Brother's in camp and parents are out working, I don't want to stay alone at home. My friends have their own partners and I wouldn't want to take up their time too. I don't mean the world to anybody else now, I am just, me.... The moment the lads left the exam hall, everyone started calling their loved ones and guess what, I felt so left out for once. For the first time in school right after exams, I felt so much like a left out kid. Sticking out like a sore thumb! Not that I cannot live without a gf, but I guess, having been so used to having her around for the past 2 years really made my life so much more interesting too. Hsing thye came over a few nights ago and we had the longest talk we ever had since secondary school. You know what, I miss these people! hmm He shared his story with me, told me how he felt after initiating his own break up and how he felt so painful deep within. I guess what he said really made me feel so much better. I am so lost in my own thoughts now...SO much so I really don't know what I am feeling...
You give my life a brand new start...
5:05:00 PM