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Friday, March 30, 2007
"Pang Kang-ed" early today cuz the participants had some study trips to the industrial parks. Left campus at 1430hrs, went home to pick up my extra peak cap for Yap. A fren who's getting married and i'm gonna be his sword bearer. coolios...lolz. gym-ed with yap and ah bee and this was followed by a strict "meat only" dinner with ah bee. hmmz.i really dunno wad to do tmr know. haha other than the fact i'm gymin in the morning. owellz...i wished i was workin..at least that keeps myself occupied.! ahah nvm..

some nice photos to cheer about.....

ANDREA's BIRTHDAY!!





.Me.Gavin.

.Class of 03S20.
.Pioneers.



You give my life a brand new start...
9:56:00 PM



活在回忆的阴影让我无法自拔。遗憾,后悔,更忘不了在一起的曾经。也许真的需要催眠自己才行。每一次闭上双眼都能看到她的身影,每一次睁开双眼都希望能看到她的简讯。。。回忆总是最美的。。。

Friends, thanks for the care and concern. Esp. Wenyong, thankiew for hearing me that night, think i may have given you a rude shock. Thanks for everything but let me take some time to sort this out. let me slowly walk out of it. dot rush me.. b'cuz i still miss her here with me..

You give my life a brand new start...
12:19:00 PM



Thursday, March 29, 2007
有些时候真 的觉得自己很傻,总是不了解自己为什么一直放不下。事实早已摆在眼前却一直也不肯接受。要明白,对她的好,就是对自己的残忍。让自己这么痛苦难道她就会领情吗? 难道这样她就会回到身边吗? 彻夜难眠,哭肿的双眼, 看着她抱 在别人的怀里,难道我就不能难过吗? 曾经相爱过,也曾经拥抱过。望着她离开, 投向别人的怀抱是如此的痛苦。曾经握着的手,现在早已不再是我了。我不希望她会看到这一切,但我真的需要一个发泄的空间。
我不需要同情,也不需要人们的斥责。我比谁都更想从回忆的阴影中爬出来!

曾经的爱早已不在,曾经说过的诺言也跟着遗失了。就让我将满满的回忆收好再上路吧! 我对你的爱还在,但我俩的爱早已遗失在风中了。。。

世界上最远的距离不是天与地,而是我在你身边爱着你,你却永远也不知道。


试着去努力 鼓起勇气 放弃你
总是不争气 没有这么快 学会安静
就连眼泪 时刻在提醒 根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚 还是找到了我 排山倒海来袭
一定是我不够好 所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角 躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好 什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰 更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好
试着去努力 鼓起勇气 放弃你
总是不争气 没有这么快 学会安静
就连眼泪 时刻在提醒 根本无法放得下你
漆黑的夜晚 还是找到了我 排山倒海来袭
一定是我不够好 所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角 躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好 什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰 更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好
总有一天你会看到
爱如海掀起惊天巨滔
我会以无坚不摧的力量
让你知道
一定是我不够好 所以你才想要逃
逃到天涯和海角 躲在别人的怀抱
你能不能不管过得好不好
不要故意躲开不让我知道
只要你过得很好 什么都已不重要
我不会故意打扰 更不会让你烦恼
我每一夜不管你知不知道
傻傻流着眼泪默默的祈祷
希望你过得好

You give my life a brand new start...
11:56:00 AM



Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Am still at work, but my day's ending in another 45 min time? hmmz. somehow, time just passes without you noticing it. been close to a month alrdy... hmmz. someth interesting today. went to the office of finance to collect per diem for the participants and then on the way back, my colleague daniel said, " eason ah, you know a lot of our malay colleagues have been saying that you look like a malay artiste? haha." i went..." oH! issit?" and then daniel continued by saying, " yah, and its some quite famous and popular one hor. " hahahah....okies.. the conversation kinda ended in a tease...but....don't you think its an irony? hahah...i do...

You give my life a brand new start...
5:15:00 PM



Tuesday, March 27, 2007
anybody wanna catch PHANTOM OF THE OPERA with me?? pretty please....anyone??

You give my life a brand new start...
9:39:00 PM



i am way too shy...wad do you do when a gal looks at u?? ahha dip your head and walk past her....lolz....

You give my life a brand new start...
9:14:00 PM



I hate dreams, i loathe them completely! dreamin wud simply mean that i have not had a good rest! i hate dreams... like totally...! They say that all fairy tales have a happy ending. but if its a fairytale it wud not have an ending in the first place..
I believe in KARMA..i seriously do...

KARMA, KARMA, KARMA.......

You give my life a brand new start...
11:45:00 AM



Monday, March 26, 2007
Point 1:

I know i've read this in someone's blog b4...
It goes like this...

What does not kill you will only serve to make you stronger....

and so....i will remember by hard.

Point 2:

There is no need for comparision.. everyone is special in their own way. just like how my bro is taller than me and i'm more outgoing than he is. Either way i live my own life, someone will appreciate me for who i am...

Last Point:

I am freakin happy! i'm gonna be the sword bearer for my fren's wedding!!! yayness!!!!! wahahah

You give my life a brand new start...
10:35:00 PM



背叛 
曲:曹格
词:阿丹、邬裕康
编曲:涂惠源
好音乐尽在搜听:www.souting.com

不停落下来

怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀

只剩下无奈

一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

有一句感慨

还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
紧紧相依的心如何
Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

紧紧相依的心如何
Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
只要你能愉快

You give my life a brand new start...
2:19:00 PM



Sunday, March 25, 2007
So many birthdays to attend, so many presents to buy...more importantly, the company of frenz and the fun at the parties.
andrea had it on saturday at signature park....it was nice meeting up with my jc mates and of course......the birthday gal!! heez..
went to zouk, met up with the uber high ervin and yc, and co. to celebrate yc's birthday. shan't go into the details.. just that never wear a pair of new shoes to a club! esp a pair thats white! haha.
gavin's birthday was at settler's on sunday, that i wud say was the one i felt most at home.. ahha prolly cuz he's a guy bah? hmmz. but in any case.. happy 21st ppL!! mine's a long way to come..most likely...no party la.. but its a wed.. can go club? lolz... u wish~ heez



You give my life a brand new start...
10:31:00 PM



Thursday, March 22, 2007
i'm not feeling well. i'm sick of life as it is. i am sick of everyth. i'm farkin suay! i'm farkin pissed. i dunno wad is wrong. dot ask me. i dunno!!!!!!!!!!

Should i go zouk tml? i dunno.......

let me hide in my shell a lil more.... i need someone to hear me out.. i need care! fark it!



You give my life a brand new start...
11:04:00 PM



peeling hands, tired body and another 2 days to go..
enough said. just lemme hide in my shell.....

You give my life a brand new start...
8:24:00 AM



Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Been quite short on updating. decided to leave the talking to the pics. just suddenly felt like saying... dehua, thanks for being sucha great, great guy! you've been there for me all the same despite all that have happened. I knw that we may not be that close, but for the past 8 years, you have been a really good fren, esp during JC, NS and now... Thanks for all the care! hmmz.. when u fall from the sky, you will feel the pain almost immediately, but when you have your frenz there to cushion your fall and lift you up all over again, you know that you are loved all the same..

when i fell, i tot i have lost everything, it felt terrible, the process, painful...i had my frenz arnd me, those that i've seldom talked to, tho
se that still stood by me when i fell all the same..I took my time to find the way, took a step back to look at wad i've lost.....i've loved...and was loved...that is wad that matters...

Those are the sweetest memories i've had....and for now..i continue to find my way up.....up again.... Thankiew ppl!! I love you guys!!!









You give my life a brand new start...
9:47:00 PM



Some Photos taken of the opening ceremony and of the course....
The three of us just before the ceremony started.
All the ushers in shades of white and black.
Posing for some really ridiculous shots....
...... what were you thinking of man....
.....I think ...i think.... Me. Kok Yi
WTO Rep, Dolores. Me.
Me. Dolores. My boss, Jake


More to come when we get the candid shots of us uploaded....wahhaha....




You give my life a brand new start...
3:52:00 PM



Monday, March 19, 2007

My favourite foto!! ahahah my dream gal eh....me and jo

You give my life a brand new start...
5:35:00 PM



Sunday, March 18, 2007
farkin pissed! i am farkin pissed can.. was bathing and den putting my cream on my face while waiting for my com to load and i dunno which ass decided to actually switch it off!! fark man! really pissed the shit outta me! I CAN BE NICE BUT DOT EVER FARKIN STEP ON MY TAIL!.....

Piece of shit!...dot wanna talk bout things like that le. spoil my day totallY! went to kbox with MK, YC and Weeping, Chee Hung, but however... weeping forgot the time! and hence we were left with only me, Mk and Yc to sing at suntec K box.. ahha but i laughed my ass off with the 2 of dem la.!

Met up with dehua and wenyong in suntec and made our way down to town. been ages since i last went there and well...we were there to get some prezzies for the 21 y-o to be babies! lolz. and then we went shoppin at centrepoint.. there were so many new shops there and i got myself a v-neck top. i used to dislike wearing v-necks, but now.... since i've grown slightly broader shoulders.. should try ma.. metro also! hahah...hmmm...time for a major wardrobe overhauL! hahaha.. hmm..

met up with weilin and xb in the late evening for an impromptu dinner of fish head bee hoon and chicken rice...sedap sia... lolz...and that was followed by rochor dou hua! hahah...as we were making our way to PS along paradiz plaza, we were mesmerised by the singing of this gal just down at Tao's restaurant @ Paradiz. dehua suggested listening to the band's performance and hence we sat outside this restaurant owned by terence cao.. he even came out to take a foto with us and talked to us.. ahha hmmz.. realli had a well day spent! work starts again on monday!! heez... nites!!!

I like this verse in Jay's song...
退后

最美的爱情回忆里待续...
-The sweetest love will only continue in my memories....

You give my life a brand new start...
11:38:00 PM



Saturday, March 17, 2007
Been some few days since i updated...was kinda tired for the past few nights and so din really wanted to come online..On wednesday we had our opening dinner and now, we're already thinking of the closing dinner in May that will be held at the Supreme Courts. hmmz. kinda like the place i work in now and the ppl who've helped us arnd. hmmz.
Thursday, Siu Kwok suddenly called me, asking me to join them for Kbox at CCK and since i was on bus 188, i just kinda decided to cancel gym and go for the singing session instead. Met up with tingfeng, bilu, kwoks and Lee lao shi for the K-ing session that ended at about 1130. Kwoks really entertained me so much with the way he sings and squabble with bilu!... but more imptly, bilu and lee lao shi can really sing damn well... ahah i really tot that they sang very well! hmmz.

Ooohz. so tired.....haha its a saturday and i'm like super tired... i dunno why.. ahha hmmz. prolly cuz i had a long day today.. gym, soccer, and pool juz now. am going out with my bro later.... gosh.. haha hmmz. carn wait for monday to come.. i mean.. cuz i get to see my eye candy la.. i saw her on thurs and fri! haha and did i say.. i like gals with long eye lashes....! ahha pretty pretty.....

You give my life a brand new start...
7:04:00 PM



Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Kinda tired now cuz i worked for 12 hours today. been a really busy yet fufiling evening.. i must say that i wasn't really keen when i took on the job, my heart was somewhere else, lost and wounded... but now i muz say that i really, really enjoy this feeling of accomplishement.. The WTO rep gave us a box of Lindt Chocs ystd when i was away as a reward for a job well done. The guys suggested waiting for me to come back b4 we have it tgt.

well, just reached home after the opening ceremony for the 1st WTO Regional trade Policy Course in S'pore. The media came and more importantly, was the feeling of accomplishment when the whole thing ended. we were ushers for the event and we even got to sit amongst the participants for the dinner.. My boss even told this prof that, " if u've got anyth, u can ask eason to do.. he's very efficient..." it kinda made me fell appreciated and that wad i have done was worth it.. but i wouldn't have made it without my 2 guys! heez...

The opening ceremony started with us waiting at the porch for the arrival of the GOH and the few other VIPs. I was in charge of the RSVP list and naturally prepared a comprehensive list of vehicle numbers that were VIPs. budden...the GOH's chaffeur came so early b4 time and gave us a scare.. but turned out he was just looking arnd 1st. BUt in the end, the GOH came in his own VOLVO.. that kinda gave us a rude shock and we scrambled to show him the way to the MPA. as the photographer, i had the chance to see him in person and walk just in front of him.. haha quite fun arh...haha.... and that was followed by a short opening ceremony and subsequently the dinner. haha actually the Tonga participant wanted to make me go with him to Zouk, but i rejected citing reasons that i had to work tmr. and i think he kinda agreed. heez..

in any case, i really had gr8 fun today and i enjoyed it totally.. heez.. budden didn get to see my eye candy, FBL today...wahahahha..... mabbe tmr den...

You give my life a brand new start...
11:18:00 PM



The inspection of the troops..... it was raining btw...
the march past.. my bro's the 4th from the rites.. lolz


Parents swarming to put on the caps for their sons
The joy and all is written all over their faces....

My bro with the reviewing officer and other award recipients....

The rain that started juz b4 the parade.......
HEre it goes, the marchin in of the colours....muahah
left, right, left right..... the troops come marchin in....
The salute....






You give my life a brand new start...
10:49:00 PM



Tuesday, March 13, 2007
i call this post..... 13/03/07.......

today's my bro's graduation parade from BMT and i would say its a pretty important thing for him and a passing phase in his NSF time. i managed to get time out from my boss just to make it for his parade and at least to show that i do care too. reached Pasir ris at bout 1230 and had someth to waste b4 we like take the chartered bus to the ferry terminal.. my mum was so damn excited bout the candy man cuz he was making animals outta his candy... ahha my mum....alwiz so cute! lolz

reached the parade square in tekong damn early and we got one of the betta seats right in the middle cuz my bro's the company best shot and hence we got betta seats. The wait to for the start was long and interrupted by series of rain....hmmz.. but well.. the most exciting thing is catching Huang Wenyong and Mediacorp filming a show there. yeah... hmmz..

The parade started at 3.15 pm and was again interrupted by the rain, but the reviewing officer decided to carry on the parade and inspected the parade in the rain..kudos to the reviewing officer....ahah. hmmz.. he had this infectious smile that he carries and this charm that kinda affected me too.. ahha.. the parade was kinda normal... and that i wud prefer to let the fotos do the talking later. wad rubbed some emotions into me was this banner i've seen at the terminal on the 1st day of MY ENLISTMENT.

It says.. 'its not wad u leave behind, but wad u gain in the days ahead....'

i think its really, really true..

saw lotta gfs of the graduands and i was kinda reminded of the days i had in NS, my commissioning parade that i'd marched in and the day i threw my peak cap into the nite sky...i was an officer, been one...and will alwiz be.. i missed those days... i missed NS....ahhaha that period of time, u had everything and it was so brainless work...minus all the late nite tortures to finish my lesson plans...

hmmz.. well..i went to town myself after the parade, it was raining heavily and i was like walking like a zombie, prolly cuz i was sleeping on the train...hahah.. but well.. i wanted to get someth from that particular shop, but they were having dinner and so i had to be back in 15... so i walked arnd, walked to art frenz to look for some handicraft stuffs i cud make in my free time... but nothin really caught my attention la and so..i left...haha

more importantly i got wad i wanted and this will serve as a stark reminder....to myself...i will not fall......!

The time, 10:49pm, 13 march 07......



You give my life a brand new start...
10:21:00 PM



Monday, March 12, 2007

bored........hahah decided to post some pics i took today ah.. ahha vainpot!!! lolz... dot luff like how xb luff when she sees it!! neh neh!

You give my life a brand new start...
9:45:00 PM



hmmm. well kinda had this lil break time for us cos' my boss's out for a city tour with the foreign participants. 1st day at work that i kinda dressed up more formally. we were asked to wear shirts.. and so.. i only have long sleeves. so i rolled up my sleeves and came in jeans. plus.. i styled my hair for work today.. i dot usually do cuz i will be gyming in the evening mah. and so.. ahahah... i look fanta-bulous gals.. lolz!! ahah no la.. well, today i was the fotographer for their arrival, had to settle their per diem (allowance from the course). their medical reports, x-rays and the loaning of laptops, mailboxes, lockers etc. well. we had a really busy morning till lunch at the lounge with the participants. they are really nice ppl and this tonga participant even said that he shud prolly look for me in asking for areas of interests.....(night clubs. night life!) do i look like a party animal?? lolz...

well.... someth that was more significant was that i was walking along the long corridors to the next building, i saw this 2 pretty gals taking fotos for the faculty's magazine or some advertisment. and then, the 3 ladies who were taking their fotos stopped me in my tracks, they wanted me to help be in the picture, but well, i'm not a law student wad! ahaha so too bad.. but i heard them saying.. eh.. he can pass of as a student here mah.. ahah ehh.. really is happy de lo.. not that i look like a law student, but cuz i look good! wahha.. wo shi hao kan de lo..muahahaz.. laugh like crazy! ....haha okies.. gtg head for the gym soon! ciaos!!.....

You give my life a brand new start...
5:30:00 PM



Sunday, March 11, 2007
hmmz.. juz reached home.. well. today was rather well spent cuz xb called me to accompany her to the IT fair.. budden ah.. the stupid IT fair is super crowded la. prolly cuz its the last day. after cutting my hair, i met up with my mum at my uncle's place and den we had our late lunch with my 2 couzzies and aunt at Marche' in Vivo. nice setting, but food with not so good quality at exorbitant prices. thats wad i think.. haha its the novelty perhaps.. ahha..

met xb at suntec city @ bout 630 pm and i told her im waiting for her at the big pillar with water flowing de, and keeps changing its colour one and she juz started laughing non stop le. we walked arnd the fair trying to compare the digital cams as she wanted one badly for herself, but perhaps, she still wants to consider a fair bit b4 getting one la. ahha saw a lotta frenz arnd there, a few working as exhibitors, a few...show girls. will post a foto of the show girls posing outside the fair for the photo shot. i seriously dislike gals doing such jobs, i'm serious, i carn understan
d why they think that getting ogled at and earning that bit more amount of money is worth it? hmmz. perhaps its a recognition that they're pretty, but under that kinda make up, i will look like rain too. wahhahaha.. hmmz.. owells. we subsequently met up with yvonne b4 heading for dinner @ city link..Thai express, had the basil chicken rice that really tormented my taste buds but luckily, we ordered 2 glasses of watermelon & lime freeze to share between us....u all no saliva phobia one ah?? ahaha... hmmz.. OH!! and b4 that we went to NUM @ citylink and xb saw her heartthrob who took a photo with her b4 and had served her b4 in some other outlets... ahha well as for me, i tried on a couple of NUM sandals and slippers and i;ve decided i will get one at heeren instead.. prefer more choices ehz.. lol...

left citylink @ bout 9pm and poor xb missed her donuts. i mean, we were going to get them, but the store closes at 9...haha nxt time perhaps xb.. Thanks for "dating" me eh.. ahha and thanks for the talk on the trip home..


nah xb.. being narcissistic using my fone.. catch me grinning in the back! ahah
okies.... the show girls that i was referring to.. hmm... kinda dislike how they dress but i really like that dress that slopes upwards.. i meant the dress, i like the style...!!
pretty?? hmm.. caught lotta guys that whipping up their fones and cams.. ahah but these were both courtesy of xb's phone. the gals had to keep posing and smiling at the guys ogling at herself! u like that job?? well not my kind of job.ahah
thats me, my bro, some random pic b4 his army..haha
ahah.. looking retarded again...
there you go..stuffed chicken wing, courtesy of xb again, but with my fone this time.. ahah
there....my basil chicken rice.. super hot la. carn stop sweatinG!!

ah har... the watermelon and lime freeze....heez....

a gr8 day out.. thank you xb!! heez...=)

You give my life a brand new start...
10:02:00 PM



hmmm....juz got back from the hair dresser's. decided to go get mu hair cut and well. i did get a new haircut. kinda got it shaved off eh. haahaha.. good ah. more cooling wahahha. hmmz. well thats besides the point. haha. came back real late last nites and thats why i could only update today. hmmz. lets see, this was how i spent my saturday:

Morning- Soccer @ Lam soon.
I'm so happy i managed to drag kwok, tf and cx for soccer ystd cuz it was almost called off due to the late nite mahjong and winning 11 sessions! hah but good thing ah, their passion for the sport won!! ahaha. reached bout 11 am and den we played till bout 2/3 pm. i kinda got burnt again due to the "da tai yang" haha but well, i kinda like my face a lil burnt.. not chao ta.. but a lil red.. looks cute mah ah. and goes with my hair. bad thing is i'll never turn dark!!! wth. muz be my mum la. only drank milk and tao ni when carrying me. unlike my bro! she ate so much choc!! ahaha weird logic ah.. ahah but thats wad she said ah. hmmz. more imptly, i had real fun playin cuz kwoks said i've improved and the best part is winning the game over the..."you know whos" hahah.. hmz. someth i took away from the soccer in the morning was... a bruise on my shin..haha swollen and a lil "orh chea" painful la.. but junwen has one too. cuz our shins kissed! wahhaa..

Pool....
after soccer, cx and tf suggested playing pool la, and being the only nice guy arnd, i decided to join dem. ahah.. i am good de lo. had my fair share of winning the both of dem. bUT!! i am relly "kan suay" can.. alwiz miscue the last ball den kenna clear table by dem. sian!! ahah.. but more interestingly, we saw 2 couples playing la..

and so for couple 1, the guy was trying to teach her gal. so he played with her.. budden, he's super de dumb la. he play on his own and neva "fang shui" for his gal de lo. keep trying to clear the table and den his gal like feel so awkward la..! dumb la. ahah u're not in a competition mah, juz help her, coach her mah. stupid!!!

ahah and den for couple 2, at least the guy's smarter, cuz he really let his gal learn and neva showed that same enthusiasm for a win like the previous guy. haha but guys.. normally not so clever one la.. now, the problem is the gal is wearing a pink off shoulder la.. not relli off, juz a lil la. can see slightly of her straps la.. and somemore, the top is pink, straps black. and he did wad the dumbest of all guys will do. he whispered to her gal and den suddenly pull her top lower a bit to the sid eof her shoulders, showing her shoulders and straps. freaking dumb sia. and in view of all the pool ppl? dumb la.. make her gal so embarassed. hah hmmz. so wads the moral of the story...??

IT is.. gals are dumb, why? cuz they choose dumb bfs!!!! wahahah.. im sorry gals... lolz..

and.. .last thing... gals! no matter how busty you are or how gorgeous that plunging neckline looks on you! pls refrain from playing pool when you're in one. it doesnt look any where near good ya.... ahha

Hern Khoon's Bday
hmmz... well, this year's our 21st and they say it signifies adulthood and all. and that prolly suggests why everyone is busy planning a memorable 21st for themselves. Hk's bday's like only the 2nd 21st i've been to and i really think that it wud be nice to have one to. but well, its unlike me, cuz i prefer to spend it with a few of my frenz and loved ones. ah. hmms. and so we reached pasir ris chalet for his bday party at bout 7 plus, played some asshole dai dee, had some chit chat session and then the cake cutting.. hmm. Hk's BEST fren, Jing xuan...planned the whole party for him and she was so much like the host that we seriously think that she's his gf la.. which he denied vehemently. ahah owellz. point is, after having the cake, his frenz each presented him with his bday gift.

there were his jC frens-us, his army frenz and his BEST fren's frenz.. lolz.. hmmz. and so, the emotional moment came when he unwrapped the prez from his BEST fren. he cried.. it was kinda touching cuz she used his fotos to make a big........ board that says, Next Top model Hern Khoon turns 21! haha looks jus like the cover of a magazine ad.. ahh yupps. and so touched was he that his tears started coming. haha.the champagne from dear gavin was popped amidst cheers and laughter and that kinda summed up the occasion....

hmm.. more imptly, thankiew for inviting us HK and of course to my JC mates, it was nice seeing you ppl again!


Dehua, thanks for the long talk we had outside the chalet, you really know me well. thanks!

ShuyiN... many thanks to you silly gal for talking to me on the bus ride back and of course for being so nice to me. you made me feel betta. its been quite long since i felt this closeness... ahhaha as a frenof course... thanks gal! ahha and keep your hair la.. short not nice! haha...

and so... we all went home on the last train back and i only reached home at 1.. haha well. its tiring, but a gr8 day spenT!! hee...

You give my life a brand new start...
12:21:00 PM



Friday, March 9, 2007
hmmz. just got back from the gym. am happy enuff to see myself grow a bit. i know that the world is still spinning and i know i've my life. my own life and i am working to piece my own picture. frens out there, i understand what you guys expect of me, but give me time, you all the yusheng in me.. all i need is time. i am moving on and i definitely will. there is nothing else that is holding me back anymore. no longer the her i know. no longer the one i used to know.. all the sweet memories will stay as memories i will look back on. nothing much.. let me find myself amongst the mess..

I promise that in a month's time you will see a better me.. a cuter me.. a more muscular me.. because to put it simply.. i am yusheng and i will not allow myself to lose.. work, work, work.....

You give my life a brand new start...
9:48:00 PM



Just got back home from my medical examination at the ntu medical centre. hmmz. had a hard time trying to find the place thou. well didnt had much sleep last nites. slept at bout 4 cuz i couldnt fall asleep.. my eyes feel heavy and puffy. but i think its quite alright... I will not forget i've loved, but i will move on with my life and find the meaning and wad i want in my life now.. THANK YOU SHUYIN for listening to me for that agonizing few hours where u merely hear me choking on my voice. i need time, i need you my frenz.. thanks so much.. I tear for the r'ship i've lost, for the one word i've had so much faith in.. but we all believe that there's no right or wrong in a r'ship.. its just the feelings. dot blame yourself. dot be guilty.. you just have to be sure of how you feel. lemme find my way.. and if our paths do cross one day, i want to rmb u as the sweet gal who've touched my life. Thanks to yoU!.. i will move on.. guys.. pull me up....

You give my life a brand new start...
11:01:00 AM



Thursday, March 8, 2007
Myself, the project secretary....

arha... my commando soon to be assistant.. Kok yi.. he's 1 year my junior.. ahaha big size mah?? hha

more fotos to upload when i find them..hahah.. i carn wait for the 1st day of course on monday and the ushering plus dinner on the 14th... heez... its wad we have all worked for...yayness...

You give my life a brand new start...
10:55:00 PM



i'm home =)
didn't really feel good gyming today. no conviction at all. or prolly cuz the focus wasn't there. nevertheless, a fruitful workout...

The day started with usual routine, however, something worth mentioning was that in the evening, i was helping Kok yi to move all the text books from Federal ( the building where my office is) to the next building, Block B level 5. Initially there was no problems with Kok yi handling it himself, but poor him, the lifts had to close while he was wheeling the books in....wad irked me the most was that he pushed the trolley of books out to allow the rest of the students to alight from the lift. HOWEVER, THOSE IDIOTS DIDNT EVEN HOLD THE BLARDY LIFT FOR HIM!! wad do you call dem?? lawyers to be?? i call dem idiots! hmmz.. when ppl study too much.. thats wad happens..

and thus, Kok yi called for my help.. on my way there...i manage to catch a glimpse of "da bitch" live! ahha. why "da bitch"? well, she's a fren's ex, a former contestant of the FHM gal nxt door. she two timed my fren, and the guy that she was with at that time was also my fren. to put it simply... both my frenz were her bfs at the same time.. guess wad made me give her that "da bitch" name. well...she has had several adventures in the cinema, at her place on the bunk bed with her sis asleep at the bottom, and several other public places too.. here.. she went adventurous with my fren A, when fren B was her 3 yr bf. cool?? ahha.. and guess wad.. she's now attached to someone who's apparently getting married!! whoah.. best.. ahah

.........den as we were moving the books..we saw her a couple of times cuz she was juz sitting by the bench studyin. then...at one point in time, we saw her missing from her seat....kok yi then said.. eh...she's gone!? and i said... hmmz.. mabbe in the toilet?? doing someth?? like a quickie?? and as we laughed loudly.. we saw her walking towards us...muaahahha.. thing is she didnt hear us and prolly wudnt know that we were talking bout her.. but is seriously hate that.. "i think im drop dead gorgeous" face that she has... wanted so much to tell her she looks like an ant.. make up so thick somemore.. so guys.. now u see... lawyers also got....Hrny one!!! wahhaha.. surprised?? well... its juz life..hhahah

oh.. and one last thing b4 i end.. have any gals ever noticed how a guy ogles at gals?? you ppl shud notice.. i seriously hate the way they look.. is so degrading and so...wth la... thats why i only glance.. and mabbe sometimes a few more glances.. i will never ever stare.. sucks.. guys... disappointing creatures!!! hmmz.. ahha.. now to my fave time of the month.. my men's health time.. ahha... ciaoz.....

You give my life a brand new start...
10:19:00 PM



Wednesday, March 7, 2007
hmmz..juz reached home, had my 2 eggs, my milkshake and i've decided to blog abit b4 i sleep ah. hmmz..the work for today was quite routine and well, perhaps the only thing that was worth mentioning was the fact that we went out for lunch at adam's road, which was approximately a 15 min walk from the BTC campus thru part of botanic gardens, along the private estates and then to adam's road. The food there really rocks man. esp the prawn mee that i had. despite the small serving of prawn that i had, the taste of the soup and the noodles, plus the prawns and the fish cake that i have added.. ahhaha really was nice....actually, i was choosing between the prawn mee and the famous nasi lemak there, but perhaps, i preferred prawn mee still and decided to give the nasi lemak up. ahahah..

and den, halfway thru lunch, i spotted this quite cute gal that was sitting behind us and thus as the usual gentleman that i am, i decided to inform the guys of this 'discovery'. budden, my asst kok yi decided to keep looking at the target and finally.....said that....not nice de..
disappointing la..haha....well that kinda summed up lunch and the rest of the otherwise boring day.... gym again tml...bless me with a nicer dream today!! hee........

You give my life a brand new start...
10:46:00 PM



Good mornin! am at the office blogging rite now cuz i'm waiting for an email and for work to do. ahah not that i am free but there are specific job scopes each of us are assigned to do. haha.. today is a happy day cuz i dreamt a happy dream tellin me to be happy. haha no la..just dreamt of a joyous occassion la.. well...its just a dream. dreamt of a really pretty gal. yeah. and i got to hold her hand sia. cool yeah? of course la... ahah she even agreed to come to my house can.. ahha. hmmz.. but she's not as pretty as guo xie ni la. ahah guo xie ni is prettier la... ahah.. okies. juz to sum it all up. i had a pretty gal in my dream and a pretty dream. hahaha..... till then... ciaoz...

You give my life a brand new start...
10:19:00 AM



Tuesday, March 6, 2007
hmm... today's rest day and hence decided to blog earlier b4 i turn in earlier as well. I need more rest if i wan my muscles to grow. ahah. well. I'm kinda enjoying my job now. not exactly the portion about waking up early in the morning, brushing my teeth with my eyes wide shut b4 trying to squeeze into the bus and making my way to work. but rather the part about having my two assistants to joke and luff along with me. they seriously are good companionship for the seemingly long and boring days where work is just typing endlessly onto my PC, trying to figure out what would be the best way to answer a simple question via email. Its wad you call the 'email etiquette' hmmz... an amazing skill i have learnt and honed as the days go by. more importantly is to try and impress your boss. haha.

now....my 2 assistants (will post their fotos soon).

Project assistant 2: Kok Yi...20 years old, graduated from Ngee Ann Poly last year and is waiting to enlist as a Commando in July...ahah a tall, lean with a well-shaped physique. haha prolly cuz of the small difference, i seem to be able to relate betta to him. very enthusiastic and passionate about what he does. haha...

So it all started with me going to draw money at the ATM near the canteen....the canteen was damn crowded, and as the 2 of dem were waiting for me, you could spot them looking arnd....fascinated..ahah..and as we were walking away from the canteen towards the 'Mr Prata' Shop arnd the corner of the Bukit Timah campus, we started chatting bout gals.. and i just said... I neva knew that pretty gals can be smart too.. ahha and then kok yi started saying that yeah, i realised this campus have a lotta pretty gals too.. haha now we all know.. there are pretty gals in the law fac. too eh. ahah.

at bout 3.30pm, i had to meet up with clarence, the cafe bar guy who will teach us how to set up the machine to make sure it dispenses coffee, tea, milo and chrysanthemum tea. and then....we got another chance to walk arnd the campus again, esp. Block B where the lecture rooms and teaching rooms are situated.ahha -hints- ahha.. and this was followed by a simple demonstration by clarence on setting up the machine. hah.. along the way back.. i saw the advert on the LAW FACULTY PAGEANT. I tell you ah.. the gals and guys seriously cannot make it la..
really.. i know i'm mean, but i think if i join, i prolly will be like the 3rd? aahha no la.. kidding sia.. where got so good looking... but trust me..realli cmi.. ahah

That kinda summed up my otherwise boring day....haha ... till the next entry...mwahhz....lolz

You give my life a brand new start...
8:36:00 PM



Monday, March 5, 2007
haha..finally back home after a tiring day at the gym. but today ah like got a lot to blog bout thats why i carn wait to be home la. lolz. xinyi!!!! you see so weird the font size like so big to me la..hmm.. lets start from morning.

okies, i seriously loathe squeezing amongst the morning crowd and rushing to work, cuz you seriously require a lot of skill trying to plonk yourself in sucha spot that you can hold onto the rails and attempt to balance all the way to work. esp when ppl start shoving past you and pushing you rite to someone's lap. its sucha "xue wen" la. neh nehz..lolz.but most imptly, every de morning ah, i confirm see this auntie hor, alwiz somehow can teleport in front of me de sia. reallI! and she has this really weird hairstyle that is straight at the bottom, but curly like maggie on top.. she has this pair of super small eyes with this pair of super thick specs. and then....she really really look like she's from china. and she neva fails to teleport!!!! is really make ppl angry de lo.!! ahah

then to work, i was almost late but the good thing is.. i wasnt late. hah i was still earlier than my 2 assistants. ahah cool not asst. lehz. haha but in any case, my 2nd asst. reported for work today and he is a commando soon-to-be.. his built and height ah.. is wad i realli wish for de lor...but dot worry, work towards dehua 1st, den him..muahah, eh bro, see u my target sia. but in any case, we finally really "work" today cuz the books from WTO has arrived and if i know how to upload the pictures, i will show u guys uh. ahha like NDP liddat, pack all the books into gift bags. ahah. arghH! cannot the stupid fone cock up la! ahaha too bad. in any case, it is just very messy la har.. -imagine...guys imagine....- ahahh..

den...there was lunch time where i had to buy back the food as study break for the undergrads have ended and skool term resumed. but the good thing is... i juz realised that actually....law skool also have pretty gals de. ahah and another thing i realised is that there are more pretty gals in s'pore than cute guys. but frenz... dot worry.. even if they all die.. there is still me ya? ahah cute also la....muahaha....oh. and someth super disturbing is this young couple. prolly sec skool only la. muz feed each other den can eat de lehz. the gal ah.. neva feed refuse to eat can..
buay tahan...nowadays youngsters ah...ahahh

b4 i even realised it, it was time to knock off. i had to rush to get to the shuttle bus stop cuz the bus stop has shifted, and hence i had to walk down 2 flights of steps past a quadrangle to reach the bus stop. but wad is most important is not this. as i was waiting for the bus, thru the corner of my eye i spotted this quite pretty gal. note is quite ah.. ahha and when we boarded the bus, i happened to sit behind her. is happen ah. lolz. as my seat is actually the last row, it is elevated and hence i could sneak peek at her la. as i was trying to catch a glimpse of her face, i realised that she was wearing a watch on her rite hand. if you think its nothing special, lemme tell you. its not a guess, not a DKNY, not esprit..neither is it adidas. but casio!!!! and the casio hor is the army kind you know. bout 10-20 dollars one. not that i m saying cannot la.. budden... i mean this may imply she's thrifty.. which is good. but the way she dress is sooooooooo.........not match the watch can. is really off de lo. ahha so point is... dot wear a casio watch when you want to look pretty..basically just dot wear la!! ha..

next on at the gym, i was late cuz i was supposed to meet ah bee at 1900hrs de lar.. but i reached only at 1930hrs. so back to the point... as i was warmin up, i saw this gal that i've alwiz seen at the gym. she is in her usual racer back and tights la. so the only thing is she alwiz like to put her mp3 in the front of her..u know wad. and right in between the...u know wad.. yah . den purposely bend and stretch......canot stand la.. den she will later try to hit on this other guy who's like super fit de.. den will talk and like sa jiao la.. cannot stand it la.dunno wad she want can.. ahaha... mabbe... hhaa..but in any case, i am super tired.sorry for the blatant use of singlish today cuz i'm super tired. haha ... sorrie guys.. till my nxt entry..
ciaoz.......

You give my life a brand new start...
10:33:00 PM



Sunday, March 4, 2007
hmmz. just reached home, bathed and decided to start blogging ahhaha. think i'm kinda going crazy over blogging.! heez. met ervin and yongcheng today and really had a great luff with them eh....-hints- but in any case, ervin, take care of yourself in Aust k...we will meet up again and this time i insist on going to sentosa to play vbalL!!! muahahah!!! its fun! trust me! hmmz. yc actually wanted to watch, just follow law, but apparently there were only the front seats left and ervin couldnt wait for the later show and we decided on another show. it was supposed to be music and lyrics, but i suggested catching 'pursuit of happyness' which WAS supposed to be an inspiring show, but in the end, i think only the ending was worth half the price of the 8 dollar ticket. LOLz.. hmmz. but someth that was really interesting was wad the male lead, chris gardner (played by will smith) said....The declaration of independence drafted by thomas jefferson mentioned the pursuit of happiness. may be we can never have happiness and that is why he mentioned to pursue happiness..hmmm.......i dunno, you guys perhaps can judge for yourself... haha.. but really the show's like super draggy and like halfway thru i started squirmin in my seat le...too hungry..=X ahah

but the plus point is..the vivo cinema is darn big can.. lolz.. nice place. lols..after the movie, ervin decided to get himself his slippers for his aussie trip. and the day ended with me and yc looking arnd topman for any new clothes... dumb? ahah a lil la.. cuz i think ppl stare stare at us, think we're gays. lolz.

hmmz.. b4 i end off....xiao bin and daphne!! you two owe me one ah for me peeling the boiling hot prawns for you! hahha okies?? lolz...kkz see ya all soon..!

oops and one last thing.. halfway thru the stupid movie, the 'hazel' msged me again asking me out la.. and when i didnt reply. she called!! i told her i was in a movie and den she asked where?? im'm badly traumatised... i dot wanna be no. 37!!!!! wahahha.... -hint hint ervin and yc- wahhahah

You give my life a brand new start...
8:49:00 PM



good morning to one and all.. wahha well not exactly morning considering its gonnabe 12 soon. sorry ah, last nites came home past 2 am and thats why after all the wash up, slept slightly at 3. now i'm still feeling tired sia. Last nites was super farnie and it was really nice getting to see the usual ppl again. The likes of Dehua, Wenyong, Junwen, the alwiz so quiet Jasper and ya Soon kwang! hahah.. plus the gals, Weilin who prefers to be known as daphne. Xiao bin, the encourager and Bilu-Chrizy the super talkative one. had much fun watching soccer with them esp when Chrizy had almost no idea why the players were substituted out and then substituted in again (Basically, she finds them very alike! muahah). That aside, its super farnie listening to her comment on the ppl's little actions more than being interested in the whole ball game! ahahh.

shortly after the game, all adjourned to jas's room for Mahjong and Blackjack. The fun is when we all started calling for "ah pek, ah pek, ah pek!" when the banker attempts his luck on getting another additional card. I really had great fun playing with them even thou i lost 4 bucks. wahha...jas's family are like super nice to us la, had strawberries and jelly after steamboat! wahha.. hmmz..the day eventually ended at 2am in the morning when we set to return home via cab. ahha.. that summed up my saturday... as for today, i will be going to vivo with ervin and yongcheng at 3 later.. for now... i badly need a rest.. cuz i feel burnt from the soccer ystd!!! haha.. updating soon.......ciaoz!.

You give my life a brand new start...
11:50:00 AM



Saturday, March 3, 2007
WE WON!!!! MAN U WON!!!! heez... 91 min on the pitch with 3 more min of extra time and O'shea managed to snatch the winner from a C.ronaldo free kick on the edge of Liverpool's penalty box!!! muahah.. it was definitely someth to cheer for after the all so boring match for most of the 90 min. hmmm. the steamboat today at Jas's house was fun and all the guys here are really nice to me.. Guys, thankiew so much for the concern and words of encouragement! hmmz. owell. Played mahjong, chatted, blogged and had steamboat before we all sat down for the big match between Liverpool and Man Utd. Its sucha experience i've had. hmmz. still thinking bout some things and i prefer to keep to myself on that. hmm. all in all, an interesting and fun day!! muahaha... glory glory man utd! glory glory man utd....!

MAN UTD ROX MY SOCKS!! wahhaa dumb...

You give my life a brand new start...
10:46:00 PM



Tired..tired ah.. woke up like 830am in the morning, prolly cuz i'm so used to waking up early le. haha owellz. went to lam soon for soccer with buddies from sec skool at bout 11 liddat and am at jas's hse playin mahjong now..but cuz i've like lost 2-3 rounds, i've decided to juz update my blog and let soon kwang take over now. ahha owell. it was really nice meeting up with ppl u were so close with during sec skool and these are the ppl u've played soccer with for most of your sec skool life and the same ppl who played with you each day after your o's papers. ahha owellz. my sec skool is just opposite the court and i still rmb how we wud run in all directions when the skool's operations manager comes catching students playing in skool uniforms. haha. The skool's gonna be torn down soon and the old buildings will make way for newer ones. hmmz. kinda missed studying and running arnd the skool's compound. all these seem so far away now. but its alwiz nice to think and reflect on the memories you've had, good or bad...

Hmmm, its gonna take me sometime to forget that its all over for us, but for now, i choose to believe that at least this is wad she wants. she knows the best for herself...just be sure that you know wad you want b4 you go into it. not discouraging u, but this may well result into someth like us too. Take care and study relli hard, for yourself, your family and for those who cares....

You give my life a brand new start...
4:50:00 PM



Good morning guys. kind of early considering i slept at 2 last nites. ain't crying but was doing someth else. The unlikely happened ystd and i've decided to move on and pursue wad i want in my life. There will alwiz be an ending to everyth and for now, this has ended and I WILL move on. Memories like how chrizy put it are nice to have and sweet to reminsce..i will prolly not forget the lil things she's done and all, but as i am typing now, the memories flood back. I'm no longer crying, I dunno why, perhaps, there was nothing to look forward to and i'm merely deluding myself so far.

The one in her mind now is no longer me and i've never liked being, 'zhi zuo duo qing'. Perhaps we learn and move on. Its a very simple thing, you go up and you come down..when its impossible to go down anymore, you will hafta find the way up again.. It may start tough, it may be undulating, but rmb that once you find the right way halfway thru, it juz goes up and up... hmmz. i dunno why but as i type, the memories juz comes back. I think i wanna be special to her and i dot want the next guy who comes along to have done the things and shared the same that i have been thru with her. mabbe tat will be. but it no longer matters....

hey gal, if you're reading this. I'm moving on. Thanks for the wonderful memories, sweet love that you've showered me in our 14 months, 15 days tgt amazing our anni was on the 13..lolz.. okies..in all that you do, rmb..think of wad you want..the big picture, he can alwiz wait till the A's are over if he really likes you, but the ball's in your court. dot procrastinate anymore. i wun be bothering you from today onwards, your wings are free to spread again, but u muz learn to think...fly on gal....

You give my life a brand new start...
9:01:00 AM



Friday, March 2, 2007
Just gave my brother a call and asked how he's done. i would have expected more from him since he has consistently always been doing well and for being so hardworking. kind sad hearing from him that he's like so disappointed with his scores and that he merely got a B, C, D. hmm. that kinda threw me off for a moment cuz at the very least i have expected an average of Bs. hmm. Thats life for you.. some things never happen the way you want it to. some things, as good as they seemed to be, may not happen the way you want it. I'm just kinda hoping he can get a relatively good slot in the Uni. hmmz. Hmm, i know she wud be asking me bout my bro's grades if she's still here. hmm..haiiz...

In any case, i have a damn interesting, hot, juicy and rated X story to tell...well.. that day i got to know this gal online. She's Hazel, 19 this year. 2 days ago she started to msg me. That day she asked if i were free to chat, saying she's bored. i told her that i'm working and will only be free that night. That night i had an unexpected msg from her. after a few msges, she said she will call me at bout 11pm. slightly past 11, i received her call and we started chatting. The conversation started like this:

me: hello!
her: Eh-lo in the most unlikely kiddish tone.
me: you sure u're 19?
her: yeah! i know many ppl think i'm not, b'cos of my voice, but liddat good wad. guys like, cuz can fantasize.
me:oh okies.......


and so that kinda shocked me until....

me: u sure u 19?
her: yah! i can show u my i/c, i can bring u clubbing know?
me: oh...so u club, you not scared mehz?
her: actually ok la. i was fingered at MOS b4....
me: !!!!!!!!!!.....oh...... you okies with it?
her: yeah i like it...
me: oh.....you've no bf?
her: why? you want me to have izzit?
me: well no, i'm just askin.
her: no...
me: den why you do all this?
her: cuz i no bf? if not i will not 'know' bout guys
me: well i assume u're not a.......(b4 i completed my sentence)
her: yah. not.lost long ago.
me: oh....when you were?
her: 17
me: oh..so how many partners?
her:36...

by then i've decided i've had enuff. and the good thing is.....her fren called and i was freed!! ahah budden, she msged me to ask where was i last nitez!! and even called.....oh crap!. freaky? yeah.. not my kinda gal thou.....those feeling really sick by now.. i'm sorry! those feeling really horny, you can ask me for her number. i dot think she minds. ha!

You give my life a brand new start...
4:01:00 PM



hEy frenz, i feel really loved knowing that all you guys that care for me so much. I prolly have to disappoint you guys as much cuz i really don't wanna give up. no doubt i will try to be strong, to move on, but a part of me tells me that i should hold on. hmmz. i am trying, trying to grapple with the fact i've lost her, trying to grapple with the fact that the times we've had will become memories that i have of her and of the love we once shared. many ppl think that i am making it sound exaggerating and overrated, but to me, this is something special and will alwiz remain so. in fact, i'm afraid, afraid that she gets over me. afraid that she has already gotten over me. I can never bring myself to imagine her with someone else, holding someone else's hands, kissing someone else's lips and all. I dunno, i just want to be with her. Guys, just let me hold on to this twindling hope till it shatters my dreams totally, help me by supporting me when i fall and when i break down......You can never wean a lover from the cup of love, unless he chooses to give up...

Dear gal, if you ever get to read this. do call me, i really miss you badly.. i miss your voice, your msges and the grin you alwiz give... i still love you....

You give my life a brand new start...
2:46:00 PM



Hmmm.. am at work now and i've a gazillion tots on my mind. The journey to work is what i really enjoy. I enjoy getting to sit down all alone in the bus, staring thru the windows and thinking, thinking of the happy memories we've had. No doubt it gets painful when i come to realise the cold hard truth, that she's no longer mine, i choose to live in the memories that i knew she loved me.. it was the sweetest thing knowing her.. we've had our own fair share of happy memories and these are things i will remember in time to come. gal, if you're reading this and you miss me too, msg me.. hmmz. its so hard trying to keep my fingers from working, from typing you a msg. I just din wanna be like an idiot. I choose to believe that you have forgotten me and you no longer feel towards me. gal, i am still waiting.. waiting for that miracle. waiting for you to tell me you missed me..for you to come back to me. silly as it may seem, painful as you may think, unfair as it may be to me...but all i want for now i you and the memories i've shared.

i went home last nites and i decided not to clear my cupboard that was reserved for the things you've given me. The stitch you've made is still there, our photo as well..the puzzle for my birthday is there and so is the ring that says.......................

All I refuse, Thee I chuse......Loveth you gal....The beautiful memories you've given me still lives on. My heart is still with you cos' i've lost the key to open it up. . i'm waiting for the day you can find the key and open it up for me again. I know its dumb to hold on to someth that may not have anyth outta it. but gal, i'm waiting for you... still...waiting for your msg. I just wanna tell you i miss you badly...

To love is not a painful thing, to forget that you've loved is painful.....

You give my life a brand new start...
8:56:00 AM



Thursday, March 1, 2007
The rain has not stopped since last nites, just as the tears i have shed. Its my lunchtime now but i've decided to sit down and deposit my feelings here. Was all alone just now and typing my first post when i starting crying. Dot tell me that i'm a guy and i should control, i am emotional and sentimental as anyone else. how is she doing? does she miss me? hmmz. i really wanna know. i'm confused and i feel like i'm regretting my decision to give up when i was the one brimming with confidence just 1 week ago. i'm sorry i've made you cry so many times while you were with me. how i wish we can start all over again.......

19 Nov 05- Out of pure curiosity, i decided to msg her. The scene, i will never forget. I was with dehua at The Chevrons and we were catching a match tgt. That was my 1st msg to her. i still rmb that i addressed her the wrong way.. prolly, lets call her dolphie. her reply totally amazed me. it was the 1st time in so long that someone has replied sucha long msg to me. she asked me to catch a movie with her,her bro and bro's fren. i agreed. the date was set: 26 Nov 05

27 Nov 05- We did not manage to catch the movie on the 26th due to our late bookout and that certainly pissed me off. i couldnt understand why i felt that way. perhaps i was just too excited to meet her. It was a sunday and she had ballet. we meet at bout 1530hrs at cine. I met my frenz prior to that and was just so excited to meet her that day. then came 1530hrs. we met outside cheers and i had to try and recognise her among the sea of ppl there. she simply stood out, she just caught my eyes. she's gorgeous and i mean really gorgeous. we caught exorcisim of emily rose and i can say that i dot know what went on in most of the show cuz i was juz looking at her. We managed to sit down at outside ngee ann city for a short talk before we parted ways at Dhoby gaut station.

Since that meeting, i can't help but started missing her. her looks really mesmerised me, but wad was more important was how st forward and forthcoming she was. We chatted almost every nite and i made it a point to switch off my fone every nites and only switch it on after my parade rehearsals so that i can have a reason to msg and reply her. That was me.. I rmb-ed that there was once her parents were not in town, she volunteered to bring her bro's stuffs down for him and his bro actually asked me to accompany him out to get it. I was so excited bout getting to see her again and that was the 2nd time i saw her again, smiling at me thru the windows of the cab...

10 Dec 05- Commissioning. the days leading up to this big event got me really psyched up. for this will stay to be the proudest day as an officer, being a contingent commander. I managed to get her a ticket to come and share this with me and by then, i was already in love with her. I tried to eavesdrop so that i can find out where they are sitting and when we marched out onto the parade square, i started to glance and see if i could find her. i DID!! she's just behind my family! amazing isn't it? hmmz. that night was simply my show for her. she came over to take a foto with me and that stays as my 1st foto i've had with her...and then she handed me a card, the 1st she had ever made for me. it was lovely, beautiful, and i can't stop grinning as i read its contents....

That night i decided to tell her that the one i've actually fell for is her and no one else. i told her that i had someth to share and she listened hard. I told her thru sms tt "dot ignore me k? i only wanted to tell u someth that i've not told u. actually. i like you....." i waited for her reply and i was trembling as i held the fone to myself....she likes me too....

11 Dec 05- she wanted to give ourselves sometime to think it thru, but i asked if i could call her dear and she was alrite with it. That evening, she told me that its betta not for us to address each other that way as it just doesnt seem right and then it all just stopped....

13 Dec 05- We decided to meet after my work in town, but decided to meet in citylink.. In my uniform as an officer for the very 1st time, i wanted to impress her, but i brought my clothes along so that i could change into. we walked along city link and we met yifeng! he grinned at me and even sent me a msg teasing me. that kinda made me smile to myself. we sat by the esplanade and chatted.... i decided to pop the question. i told her " would you be my gf?", holding her hands i asked, " i can't wait anymore you know, i wanna hold your hands and be with you, would you be mine?".... she said, "actually i can't wait anymore too, yes i wanna be yours..." and that was the beginning of a sweet romance to come...


Baby, if i could turn back time, i would want you to be mine again. baby, if i could choose again, i would still want you to be mine... Come back to me.....


You give my life a brand new start...
1:04:00 PM



Not all fairytales end b'cos all good things should never come to an end. Just like how the prince and princess will alwiz live happily ever after. someone said this before. Which is longer? forever or always? Dot ask me. i Seriously have no idea. I know i am sad, but i am more disappointed. Disappointed that wad i have believed in has alwiz failed me. But i dot blame her, i dot hate her.. i miss her! Seriously.. i DO. its not one week, not one month, but one year... hmm.

On the journey to work, i tot of the happy times we had, the times we would laugh on the train, living in our own world, walk arnd orchard swinging our hands like little kids, catching 'ballet under the stars' at Fort canning, the movies we have watched together, the hours spent frolicking under the sun in Sentosa and the BBQ we had.... We had so much to share, so much fun. Every conversation in the nites is alwiz different. Every msg then was wad i looked forward to... I enjoyed gving her the little surprises, seeing her go..."you're here????!!!". And as i typed, i could feel the tears welling up... all i've done, i've done with her in my mind. all that i have given is all that i could. i will miss shopping at "spotlight", PS for the little gifts i will alwiz make and i will miss walking along orchard, past city hall to the esplanade......I will miss you most importantly...! The one i call mine is kept safely in my heart.. I need you... I love you.I really do!

You are luckier than me 'cos you can choose betwn loving me and not loving me while i can only choose to love you or love you more... you were everyth i had and that i have lost...

You give my life a brand new start...
9:33:00 AM



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