I always thought that writing was one way of getting things off your chest and just how much it can help to make me feel better. It was simply amazing how I'd thought I'll never be blogging again. Things got a little crazier this time and it took such an unbelievable turn for the bad I just wasn't prepared...If it were so simple, that wouldn't be called "life" anymore ain't it? ,what one of my friend would readily say. But its simply crazy to see the change in a person so drastic, someone I thought would be there for me, now turning a cold shoulder to me, changing into someone I'd never knew existed. Perhaps it was the freedom, the way she finally saw what the opportunities were WITHOUT me and so be it...

I thought my blog would become redundant when she came along. She was so different from the rest but I never knew that this can all change. I thought I turned in at 4 am this morning and was so worried I wouldn't be on time for the 0930 lesson but guess what, I jolted up at 0730 and I just couldn't put my mind to sleep anymore..The things she said kept racing through my mind, the things she did. She didn't mean to hurt me but I don't seem to be the one that causes the ripples in her heart anymore. It seems so hard to make it work anymore. Regrets aplenty, things I could have done to make this all the more memorable, but I just cannot anymore. This feels so tiring, so painful, especially knowing I've got so much in me I don't know who to tell...

Would she wake up? I don't know.. The photos were up yesterday and it seems that his were all titled with so much happiness while for us....I was the only one tagged in it.. No more sweet titles for this man of hers...NOTHING.... The pain is unbearable, I just didn't know how to react but I know my friends will be there for me....I hope this will past and we both emerge stronger, I hope she realises that I've been the one through it for her.. I hope she sees the light and realises through mind, not the heart, I still miss her but i think she doesn't think about me. That's what I think...I need some help....I need to find myself...
You give my life a brand new start...
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