Its not helping that I am all alone in this room all by myself. I am so used to letting my thoughts run wild, so used to crazy thoughts and silly ideas, but I never, never felt so alone before. In another two days time, it would have been our 25th month, if I still had you by my side. I wonder if you will ever remember the date and if you would feel that tinge of sadness about losing this relationship. Note that I no longer say losing me, cos' I thought I don't mean anything to you anymore. I kept reading through my blog, trying to tell myself that just as it ha happened the last time, it has now happened a second time. I am so afraid of falling in love again, of going through the process of building it all up only to find it tumbling down again. I need some confidence desperately. I keep thinking to myself nowadays, where can I find a girl who appreciates me for who I am but not for how I look? I give my all in everything to do, short of making it good enough for my studies and academics, but am I really not driven? I don't think so, see BROADWAY 2009.... Isn't it a good enough indication of my conviction my passion and drive? I don't know why, I don't know what to do anymore, god.... GIVE ME A SIGN....
You give my life a brand new start...
8:40:00 PM