When she came along, she gave me a reason to ask myself whatever I'm blogging for. She said that its just weird to tell the world about what is happening to my life and so it seems, this blog became isolated. Its been two years since and I really feel very, very tired having to watch my back every time it happens! I don't know what to feel no and I don't know if I'm feeling sad too. All that i know, is that I am feeling uncomfortable. I don't know what's exactly on my mind, but I simply hate the feeling of waking up day after day, thinking that it was just a dream. Each time I wake up, I will just rush to my mobile and glance at its screen, hoping to see a message from her. Is it a routine? Or is it purely just hope?
We used to send each other messages in the morning all through the day, but this has stopped ever since contemporary took over her life. Its not dying down yet, the trainings, the meetings and more importantly that guy! I cannot understand how he doesn't feel anything! He has thrown his respect for other people right through the window! Just as how I don't know how he knows that she was sick the last time. Perhaps she told him, perhaps he asked, perhaps.........Life is such a tough process sometimes, we face obstacles in our way and we stumble and fall. BUT, I've met with such situations before already! Do I always have to go through this?? I need some love, I need some care. What should I do? What can I do? I need strength to carry on....
You give my life a brand new start...
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