Been close to a week since we last contacted each other, the longest by far. Today we had the same elective together and I didn't sit with her because it just didn't feel right. She left straight after class and I thought, well, this way I wouldn't have to risk bumping into her. Then again, thoughts were going through my mind about how I would have reacted if we bumped into each other. I guess we almost did during the break but I walked straight towards the GENTS without looking back. When I was finally done, I walked out only to find her right in front of me. GOSH! I was so relieved we didn't bump into each other, otherwise I would have frozen, not knowing whether to acknowledge her presence or not.
In any case, as soon as class ended, she disappeared amongst the crowd while I was still busy packing up my bag. It didn't matter especially since I wasn't so keen to meet her. I went to the library to put my stuff down before heading to the canteen for dinner with shawn when we saw her sitting alone in front of Old Chang Kee. I murmured to shawn before turning away hastily. To my astonishment! I realised she was actually waiting for him. That guy! Oh well, that moment, I wished I could go up to him and send him reeling from my punches. I wished I could have tested my fists on his face ya know! That moment, my heart felt like a dagger had went right through it. Well, I thought that was an understatement. I felt that my tears were just waiting for the floodgates to be opened. I held it back. The pain was unbearable! They had arranged to meet... Its the last straw. I will not look back until I move on..... Lost it all..... I will not be humbled......='(
You give my life a brand new start...
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