Its been a long time I find it hard to express how I really feel inside. The feeling sucks totally and well, its called living up to reality. I have been keeping quiet the whole of today and I just felt like keeping to myself. I badly wanna talk to someone to just let go of my emotions. I should have a control over myself, after all, I am all grown up and I've been through the worst of my 21 years so far, THE NS experience. Living up to reality really just sucks sometimes. I guess I don't need to be reminded that I am not as good looking as my mates or whatsoever. I just want to be an average guy. I don't really care if I am that good looking or if anyone thinks I am not. I am happy the way I am. I just don't like to keep quiet and and act like the whole world owes me something but perhaps, I really, really don't know what can make me feel better.....

Chengjie made me laugh just now and really, he's always making me laugh. He's probably someone who has such an impact on me to become a GL. hmmm..i wish i could pullmyself outta this shithole! crap!
You give my life a brand new start...
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