Monday, November 12, 2007
A few months ago, I asked myself this question. "Do I have any friends close to my heart? Or am I just a poor soul who has no close friends?" Today I ask myself the same question. Perhaps, I am just someone who always wallows in self pity. A friend will never call you a loser, no matter if its a joke or a tease. A friend will stand by the decisions you make and support you when you fall. But probably in the eyes of my friends, I am just someone who finds them when I am down and neglect them whenever I am attached. Yes,I used to neglect my friends, used to be selfish. But when I saw how bad I fell the last time, I was determined to make things change. Believe it or not, I have been trying my best. Did anyone know how much it hurt the previous time when I needed to go out so badly and nobody was free. Turned out they were meeting up less me. Perhaps someone forgot, perhaps they didn't want to disturb me, but then I felt lost. I asked myself if it were really my fault that now my friends elude me. I am a sentimental person, just as people see me as a very emotional guy. Its all the same. Ever since I joined dragonboat, there are trainings on Mondays, Wednesdays, Saturdays and Sundays. Since I am staying in hall, the rest of the weeks are then spent in hall of course. That will be Tuesdays and Thursdays. Of which, Thursday is my allocated self training day and Friday my rest day. On saturdays and sundays, I have water trainings at Kallang and they often end in the late afternoon. My life now revolves around trainings and more trainings on top of the usual academic work. And that, I enjoy the company of friends it brings. It has never been in my intention to neglect my friends now. Both my friends and gf are equally important. Although she may be a little more important. But one thing is for sure, I will never neglect those that stood by me when I was down. It doesn't matter if you treat me the same way as I do towards you. BUt in any case, you ARE my friend.
You give my life a brand new start...
11:20:00 AM
