The rain has not stopped since last nites, just as the tears i have shed. Its my lunchtime now but i've decided to sit down and deposit my feelings here. Was all alone just now and typing my first post when i starting crying. Dot tell me that i'm a guy and i should control, i am emotional and sentimental as anyone else. how is she doing? does she miss me? hmmz. i really wanna know. i'm confused and i feel like i'm regretting my decision to give up when i was the one brimming with confidence just 1 week ago. i'm sorry i've made you cry so many times while you were with me. how i wish we can start all over again.......

19 Nov 05- Out of pure curiosity, i decided to msg her. The scene, i will never forget. I was with dehua at The Chevrons and we were catching a match tgt. That was my 1st msg to her. i still rmb that i addressed her the wrong way.. prolly, lets call her dolphie. her reply totally amazed me. it was the 1st time in so long that someone has replied sucha long msg to me. she asked me to catch a movie with her,her bro and bro's fren. i agreed. the date was set: 26 Nov 05

27 Nov 05- We did not manage to catch the movie on the 26th due to our late bookout and that certainly pissed me off. i couldnt understand why i felt that way. perhaps i was just too excited to meet her. It was a sunday and she had ballet. we meet at bout 1530hrs at cine. I met my frenz prior to that and was just so excited to meet her that day. then came 1530hrs. we met outside cheers and i had to try and recognise her among the sea of ppl there. she simply stood out, she just caught my eyes. she's gorgeous and i mean really gorgeous. we caught exorcisim of emily rose and i can say that i dot know what went on in most of the show cuz i was juz looking at her. We managed to sit down at outside ngee ann city for a short talk before we parted ways at Dhoby gaut station.

Since that meeting, i can't help but started missing her. her looks really mesmerised me, but wad was more important was how st forward and forthcoming she was. We chatted almost every nite and i made it a point to switch off my fone every nites and only switch it on after my parade rehearsals so that i can have a reason to msg and reply her. That was me.. I rmb-ed that there was once her parents were not in town, she volunteered to bring her bro's stuffs down for him and his bro actually asked me to accompany him out to get it. I was so excited bout getting to see her again and that was the 2nd time i saw her again, smiling at me thru the windows of the cab...

10 Dec 05- Commissioning. the days leading up to this big event got me really psyched up. for this will stay to be the proudest day as an officer, being a contingent commander. I managed to get her a ticket to come and share this with me and by then, i was already in love with her. I tried to eavesdrop so that i can find out where they are sitting and when we marched out onto the parade square, i started to glance and see if i could find her. i DID!! she's just behind my family! amazing isn't it? hmmz. that night was simply my show for her. she came over to take a foto with me and that stays as my 1st foto i've had with her...and then she handed me a card, the 1st she had ever made for me. it was lovely, beautiful, and i can't stop grinning as i read its contents....

That night i decided to tell her that the one i've actually fell for is her and no one else. i told her that i had someth to share and she listened hard. I told her thru sms tt "dot ignore me k? i only wanted to tell u someth that i've not told u. actually. i like you....." i waited for her reply and i was trembling as i held the fone to myself....she likes me too....

11 Dec 05- she wanted to give ourselves sometime to think it thru, but i asked if i could call her dear and she was alrite with it. That evening, she told me that its betta not for us to address each other that way as it just doesnt seem right and then it all just stopped....

13 Dec 05- We decided to meet after my work in town, but decided to meet in citylink.. In my uniform as an officer for the very 1st time, i wanted to impress her, but i brought my clothes along so that i could change into. we walked along city link and we met yifeng! he grinned at me and even sent me a msg teasing me. that kinda made me smile to myself. we sat by the esplanade and chatted.... i decided to pop the question. i told her " would you be my gf?", holding her hands i asked, " i can't wait anymore you know, i wanna hold your hands and be with you, would you be mine?".... she said, "actually i can't wait anymore too, yes i wanna be yours..." and that was the beginning of a sweet romance to come...


Baby, if i could turn back time, i would want you to be mine again. baby, if i could choose again, i would still want you to be mine... Come back to me.....


You give my life a brand new start...
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