Just got up from the bed. I actually fell asleep some few minutes ago. I guess its the dragonboat training! The 1st training I attended on monday was pretty much a breeze for me and although I did go for training mentally prepared, I guess I am still pretty much rusty after not exercising for so long. Seriously, I have this feeling that I will become super fit if I do get to join DB after all. Apparently, supply is more than demand and they will be observing us through the various trainings and from there the lucky 20 will be selected to join NTU DB officially. I am kinda lazy to move away from my seat probably cos' I'm way too tired to lift my butt off the chair! LOL.

Training was done in a station style, circuit "warm-up" started off with 3 x 18 minute stations comprising the following:

• A run outside SRC, effectively rounding SRC, and i think Nayang Valley before we turn back into SRC, to be completed in 18 minutes.

• Medicine ball twisting, Left: 2 min 30s, Right: 2 min 30s, Chest passes: 2 min 30s. This will be followed by a 3 min break before we do a 2nd set of the above again. 18 minutes in total.

• Pull ups: 8 sets of 10 pull ups each, plus 20 push ups & 20 crunches. All to be completed within 18 min again! LOL

Finally, the gym routine will be as follows, 5 stations of 30 seconds maximum repetitions:

1. Front Shoulder lifts (I think...)
2. Upright Row
3. Forward bend and row
4. Bicep Curls
5. Can't Rmb the name~! LOL

I managed to complete training! But that was not without having to endure with a churned stomach that seems ready to throw up and wobbly legs. I really needa start getting myself ito shape. Tired tired tired!.... Well and so it seems, the trainings have actually gotten my mind off some unhappy stuffs. But I am so surprised about what actually kept me going during the training! I must be a self motivated individual!!! LOL..... Nites peeps! <3

Oh and my new nick name is FUJITSU! LOL wahhahahaa....

You give my life a brand new start...
11:27:00 PM

Before I start my blogging proper, I think it is only right for me to say that the misunderstanding between me and my friend has already been cleared and it is really nice of him to have emailed me to clear things up! Thanks people! Thank you kwok for being such an understanding person!

I really hate it when my mood swings and I don't really know what's going through my mind. This is so typical of me and so typical of a what they percieve a cancerian to be. Sometimes I don't even know if it is alright to be honest at times. Perhaps sometimes I should just keep to myself still. How does the Yusheng you used to know behaves like? Does he sulks? Does he worry about everything around him? I can't seem to recognise myself anymore. hmmm... I hope that I can just not think about anything now.....

Aint feeling in the right mood.I shall nap awhile first!.
You give my life a brand new start...
2:42:00 PM

And so it seems to me that my patience is running thin....I don't know what to say and I don't know how I should put it across to a friend whom I've known for 8 years. I really, really feel damn demoralised. No offense to anyone, but I just needed an outlet to vent my frustration. The story goes like that, I've a friend who has been squatting in my hall ever since term started and initially I was pretty alright with it. After all, we have been friends for so long and it is only more convenient for him to stay back in my room after his trainings right? But now, it seems that my place at the desk is no longer mine. I don't really get to use it when I need it and when I wanna use it, he's at the desk. Yes, remember the point, we're friends and even more so, 8 years of friendship..! I think thats where its hard for me to tell him to keep the place tidy, neat and clean. I know that it is wrong to be so "ngiao", but seriously, I hate to see my place in a mess. I totally cannot study with all the mess and it defeats the purpose of me staying in a hall.

I probably have done some things where some people can't tolerate as well, and i am sure if you let me know, I would try to change. But somehow this is wearing my patience thin. I think my roomie is pretty fine with his presence, but I am not being a total "biatch" by complainin here and being "ngiao". I seriously don't think I am cos after all, I am just asking for my space to be neat and clean. I hate it when people take things for granted and assumes that it is alright to do things w/o asking or at least informing me. It is not like I will say no. But perhaps it would have been better if I were informed beforehand. My room is now in a mess, my table's in a mess, the place is in a mess and worst still its getting dirtier day by day.! Can someone like tell me what to do? I don't need you to pay me rent, I don't need anything...All I am asking for is that I can have my peace back. My neat table and my room neat. I am sorry if through this I have actually pissed anyone off but as of now, I am seriously damn pissed off!


You give my life a brand new start...
1:59:00 PM

Feels like I have always known you

And I swear I dreamt about you

All those endless nights I was alone

It's like I've spent forever searching

Now I know that it was worth it

With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels

Thought I knew how it feels

But with you it's like the first day of my life

'Cuz you leave me speechless when you talk to me

You leave me breathless the way you look at me

You managed to disarm me, my soul is shining through

Can't help but surrender my everything to you

Ohh...

I thought I could resist you

I thought that I was strong

Somehow you were different from what I've known

I didn't see you coming

You took me by surprise and

You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels

Thought I knew how it feels

But with you it's like the first day of my life

You leave me speechless when you talk to me

You leave me breathless the way you look at me

You manage to disarm me, my soul is shining through

I can't help but surrender, oh, my everything to you

Oh... Oh...

You leave me speechless (the way you smile, the way you touch my face)

You leave me breathless (it's something that you do I can't explain)

I'd run a million miles just to hear you say my name

Baby

You leave me speechless

You leave me breathless (the way you look at me)

You manage to disarm me, my soul is shining through

I can't help but surrender my everything to you

Oh...

You give my life a brand new start...
1:40:00 AM

Just got back from Liann's room warming which is happening just opposite my block. Those girls are really serious about doing a room warming and they even had the games ready, the drinks there and nt forgetting the effort they out in to decorate their room! It was really fun getting to know new friends from the other worlds in Sports camp. Sports camp really was worth my time and money! It was worth going to bed at 3am and waking up at 6-7am the next morning expecting even more fun through the tirelessly long but enjoyable day.

Well, school has since started and now I really understand why they say that sports camp will be something you will remember for the rest of your time in NTU. I really don't know what is going through my mind right now. I really am wondering whether I am stupid or just plain dumb. Sometimes, I just keep reminding myself that I should be aware of where I stand and my own limits. (Zhuo ren yao you Zhi zi zi ming!) But sometimes, I just feel that things are not as bad as it seems. I really am confused.......If only I know....what to do....Ughhhh!!!!

Rate me on a scale of 1-10.....IF i fail, don't bother telling mE! LOL
You give my life a brand new start...
12:49:00 AM

Just had this sudden urge to post something on my blog. I don't know why, but sometimes, I can be quite random.

I am pretty sure that I am falling sick, or rather, am sick already. I kept waking up in the middle of the night yesterday and I just couldn't fall asleep. Was aching all over and I just felt damn uncomfortable. Thank god there was panadol! If not I would have been writhing all over the place. I swear I have never felt so sick in such a long time already. I gotta go prepare already, lecture's at 1130! Buaiz...
You give my life a brand new start...
9:57:00 AM

It has been some 2 weeks into school term and finally I have gotten myself a laptop. At the very least, time in hall will be less boring and definitely that will mean access to internet. Been telling myself to work hard and not to repeat the same old mistakes since secondary school. I have always enjoyed reflecting on my own, thinking about life and about the various things that happen around me. Just like how I will always say that humans are superficial beings, like how girls throw themselves at good looking guys, that is LIFE.

It has been some 9 months ever since I ORD-ed, and whenever I look through the photos I have taken during my active days, I can't help but miss the people around me. The camaradarie amongst my course mates, the crazy fun we had and the crazy things we used to do. I will neve forget how I felt marching on the parade square, never forget how it felt when I threw my peak cap into the air. Not to forget mentioning commissioning ball. Those were the days...
I am amazed at how time flies and how I have managed to cope all these months. Its been some 6 months already and I must say, I have finally gotten over it. I used to think that I will never find someone better, never find someone who can make my heart skip a beat, but perhaps, I am wrong.

I know that you may still be reading my blog, whatever it is, I have never hated you for choosing the path you are taking today. You have chosen what you wanted. No matter what happens in life, I will always support you, as a friend. My best wishes to you girl.....




You give my life a brand new start...
10:59:00 PM

I know I haven't been updating ever since I go back from sports camp and I know I seriously haven't had much time catching up with my friends. I am so sorry people. I have been moving in to my hall and have been trying hard to settle down during this first week of school. YES! school has started yesterday and the good thing is, I have no lectures today and that means a sigh of relief from the hectic rush to try and settle down, find the lecture rooms, find my notes and understand the lectures. It is real hard work to be studying after 2 years of narional service. Although some stuffs retains in your mind, but most of the time I really need to think hard and find the link between what I still remember and what is taught but I promised mummy to study hard!

Econs lecture was more than just a torture. The theatre was so cold and the lecturer (Probably from Philippines) was like prounouncing his "R's" so clearly that it really irritates me after a while. AND all the principles of econs are like so random to me. I really have to read up before it all eludes me and I start to regret like how I did for my A's. My hall room is still bare and I think I will need to move my clothes and stuffs in soon! I haven't got my laptop yets and its really super boring in the nights. But the good thing is my roomie will be bringing his TV soon...I really miss sports camp, really miss having no worries, playing and just simply enjoying yourselves. Now school starts and not that there will be no time for fun, but perhaps, past experiences tells me that I have to work doubly hard to catch up with the rest.

Ain't exactly in a good mood now and that probably explains why I am typing in a post with Ivan's laptop. Ivan and Gavin's my toilet mate and Shawn's my roomie. Hmmmz. Perhaps I should just focus on studies....Gonna go get my notes from the library and then go home to pack up more stuffs. Promise to update soon. Ciaos.... =(
You give my life a brand new start...
11:39:00 AM